Lean in or Let go?

So, I've been doing a lot of thinking...

I've been thinking about life and the ever changing seasons that we experience. Right now I am transitioning from one season to another and it has my mind wrapped up in the lessons and losses I've maneuvered. This year I became something...something new! But, that only happened because I surrendered to the undoing (stay with me now)...

This year I was undone and so done with these battles that felt rigged - and NOT in my favour (lol). In this moment I had to remember to trust the Father and not feelings (thank you Ps. Furtick). Anyway, I was over it, over friendship, people, business...everything. I was tired of always being nice and having to be strong. I felt lonely, invisible and fully misunderstood. There were moments where I was even mad at God (don't worry I told Him about it). Then, He made all things clear - He reminded me of who I was and what He placed in me. He reminded me of who He was and in that moment I begun to see clearly.

You see, life is made up of a constant ebb and flow...a repeated cycle of breaking and building; a process of preparatory purpose meant to stabilize us in the season that's coming. Many times however, we don't lean in...we let go. I've probably completely lost some of you but keep going I promise it'll make sense soon (lol). Every ship needs an anchor...when the waves swell that is when we are to hold on to our anchor (for me that's Christ) in other words lean in but many times we become so scared that we release (let go) the very thing holding us steady...our anchor! I don't know about you but I'm tryna sleep in the storm and not fight so much as I stand on Exodus 14:14 (yeah go look it up lol). So, my point is amidst the lessons and losses I learned a bit of leaning...I learnt how to lean in!!!

Instead of questioning "will my anchor hold"? I needed to ask myself the question "will I hold my anchor"? I was then reminded of this scripture (one of my favs) - Isaiah 59:19 "...when the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a standard against him". In those painful moments I held on to the one thing that is constant, the one thing that does not change and that became my calm. So, I'll end with some tips for seasons of painful disruptions: 1) Focus on the constant; 2) Figure out the required change; and 3) Find the calm.

I'll also leave you with a link to this beautiful song I recently discovered by one of my favourite worship ministers - Victor Thompson called Calm (Link: https://youtu.be/mq4XndqzUZc?si=t72bNKSwE7cW_riU). Remember, you get to decide whether you lean in or let go! Continue to be bless, bold and brave...you're already beautiful. Love ya!